( fifty people aren't nearly enough. fifty lives are still better than none. prax can't imagine having to make those choices, though he fears that the path he's on right now might mean that he has to. what would he do? and could he live with himself?
will he be able to live with himself if it turns out that mei doesn't make it? )
Yeah, it can. But that's not the same as saying that they will.
( but amos is trying to hard to be hopeful and prax — prax can't deny him that even though he's trying to brace himself for the worst. it's a constant war between hope and everything he's seen. he smiles and it's only half-forced. amos deserves better than his doubt. )
I'll figure it out. Once we have Mei back. ( we. he can't imagine doing it without the crew of the rocinante. without amos. )
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will he be able to live with himself if it turns out that mei doesn't make it? )
Yeah, it can. But that's not the same as saying that they will.
( but amos is trying to hard to be hopeful and prax — prax can't deny him that even though he's trying to brace himself for the worst. it's a constant war between hope and everything he's seen. he smiles and it's only half-forced. amos deserves better than his doubt. )
I'll figure it out. Once we have Mei back. ( we. he can't imagine doing it without the crew of the rocinante. without amos. )