No, which actually surprised me. That's the normal reaction to finding out an adult you trust went on a murder spree, right? I should be afraid of what you're capable of. But, that's not how I feel. I feel.... confused and sad because I don't think you're some crazy monster. For it to even make a little bit of sense to me, all I can think is you must have done it because you felt you had no other options. That confuses me because how could there be no other options? It makes me sad because you have to live with what you've done. I don't know how you do it.