Fine. Yes. It's up to her. I just didn't tell her that.

[ because then he might actually be happy right now, shudder to think. ]

She's the toughest lady I know, that doesn't mean I won't hurt her. I drove her towards someone else because I was too caught up in my own mission at the time. But here things are different. Here we see each other every day. I don't think I know how to live without her anymore.